慢慢走 / Walking Slowly

媽發生小意外至今已一個月了，在家裡看她用著扶手慢慢走起路來感覺有點安慰。每天回到家後看見她都有點開心，因為這場意外讓我珍惜我與她的親子關係。媽住院的那個星期，家裡顯得格外的冷清，她回家後，冷清消失了。我為她祈禱，希望她早日康復，能像往日一樣走路時不用用扶手。

It has been 1 month for the accident, I feel comfortable when mom can walk slowly with the walking frame. Because of this accident, I treasuring our parent-child relationship, it gets closer and closer. When mom was hospitalized, I felt my home was so quiet and lonely; when she is back, the quiet & lonely disappeared. I pray to God, I hope mom having a speedy recovery, hope she can walk like previously without walking frame.

他們比誰都更傷心。。。 / They are saddest than anyone...

農歷新年已過，本來這個新年感覺不大開心因為母親發生小意外。但既然事情已過，就當做發了一場惡夢吧。我不開心，但地球另一端的某些人也許比我更傷心，他們是誰呢？

當每個華裔同胞正在開開心心地慶祝農歷新年時，你有否想過那些家裡某某成員不幸在農歷新年或前後幾天逝世的人，他們不是更傷心嗎？他們要如何度過？原本沒想過這樣的問題，只因農歷新年期間某親戚告知他的某某親戚往生了，再來就是初六上班時才得知同事的父親在年二十九逝世了，還有新年期間我家對面的殯儀館都有家庭成員為死者舉行殯禮，這幾件事都讓我轉換我的念頭以及站在他們的立場去想，他們比任何人都傷心。

媽在醫院都有一直在問為何她會意外跌倒，我對她說這可能是不幸中的大幸，看看其他病房的病人，插滿水管的、睡著不醒的、意外重傷不能說話的，他們不是更慘嗎？媽似乎了解了。

Chinese New Year has passed; at the beginning I feel sad for this New Year due to the small accident happened to mom. But since it was passed; just let it be. I feel sad but someone from the other side of the earth is saddest than me, who are them?

When each and every Chinese are celebrating the Chinese New Year happily, have you ever thought of those people who family member passed away on the Chinese New Year or before or after the Chinese New Year? They are saddest than me. How they celebrated the Chinese New Year? Actually I never thought of this question before, until my relative visited us on Chinese New Year and told us one of their relative has passed away just right before Chinese New Year, added when I back to work on the 6th day of Chinese New Year then only I was told by colleague one of my colleague father has passed away on the eve of Chinese New Year eve. Some more few funeral ceremonies were held at the funeral parlour just opposite to my apartment during Chinese New Year. Few of these cases changed my thought, they are saddest than anyone else.

Mom always asked me why the accident happened to her when she was in the ward, I told her it's just a minor accident, and maybe it's a great fortune for her. Look at other patients, those with full of tubes around their body, some cannot even move and sleep there for the whole day, some with serious accident and cannot even talk, are there more bad or miserable than us? Mom seems to understand.

生日不快樂 / Not A Happy Birthday

二零零八年二月十七日，人生進入了第二十七個年頭，二十七歲了。我沒把這天記住，直到有人傳短訊祝我生日快樂時，我才記得。沒特地的把它記住和慶祝，只因我想簡單地度過，沒想到要簡單度過也簡單不了，早上一個晴天霹靂，考驗降在母親的身上。天剛亮，我準備載雙親到市場買菜時，媽經過樓下雜貨店前的走廊時因貨物擺放得太多，路太窄，就一個不小心踢到貨物跌在地上，當時我心裡有種不好的感覺。扶起媽後，看她走路的樣子是多麼的辛苦，醫院是唯一的選擇。

到醫院檢查時，我以平常心去看待這件事，結果不是我想像那麼簡單。Ｘ－光顯示右上腳的髖關節骨折，唯一的方法是開刀植入假的骨，那是不是晴天霹靂呢？沒辦法，手術排到星期三才進行，手術前幾天唯有住院因為根本就不能走動。

這一個星期裡，家人都輪流的陪在她身旁。動手術那天，我從早上陪媽聊天聊到下午五點半。媽一直說怕，我說以前我也有被推進手術室的經驗啊，麻醉藥打在手上後，不到五秒鐘眼睛立刻閉上，繼續下來醫生做甚麼我也不知道。講著講著，媽才放松了許多。手術進行大約兩個小時，從手術室推出來後她還半昏迷，嘴巴不停的喊痛，我心很酸。據護士說，手術進行時醫生已幫媽打了十次止痛藥，不能過量，所以手術完成後不能再打因為怕有生命危險，她能做的就只有忍。小妹陪媽在醫院過夜，第二天媽醒來後感覺比較舒服。整個星期我都處在低落的狀態，直到星期六醫生允許她出院後我才感覺放松點。

現在媽在家裡休息，需要一段時間才能完全康復，在此祝她早日康復，身體健康。媽，愿您快點好回噢！我視這次的事件為上天給媽、我以及家人的一個考驗，為我二十七歲的生日寫下洗不去的故事。

17th February 2008 is my 27th Birthday, I didn’t purposely remember it till someone sent sms to me wishing me Happy Birthday then only I remember is my birthday. I didn’t purposely remember it and do any celebrations because I want it pass like normal day, but everything out my expectation. A “challenge” has thrown to my mom in the morning when I prepared to fetch my parent to market. When we passed by one of the shops at the ground floor of my apartment, there are a lot of goods stacking on the corridor & the walkway became narrow. One of the goods was hit by my mom & she fell down, some bad thought came to my mind on that moment. She cannot walk well; the only way is to send her to hospital.

I calmed down myself; I hope it was just a minor problem. But when the result was out, it was out of my expectation. The x-ray shows that there is a fracture on the right hip, the only thing they can do is to make a hip replacement operation. It’s so sudden and we got no choice, the operation was scheduled on Wednesday, and she need to stay at ward caused totally cannot walk.

For the whole week, we took rotation to take care of mom. On the operation day, I was chatted with her since morning till 5:30pm. Mom told me she was scared, I told her I have operation experience before. When the injection of anesthetise was given, it just took around 5 seconds to unconscious, and we will do not know what going on later. She felt relax after listened my advised. The operation took around 2 hours, she was half-unconscious when came out from the operating room. She told me very pain, I felt sad. The nurse told me the doctor had given 10 painkiller injections to mom during operation, cannot over injection else it might be dangerous for her, what she can do is be patient. My sister was over night with her in the hospital, mom look better when she woke up in the next day morning. My mood was down the whole week, I feel better when doctor said my mom can discharge from hospital on the Saturday morning.

She is resting at home now; need to take some time to recover. I’m here to wish her having a speedy recover, and also healthy all the way. I look upon this incident as a “challenge” from God to mom, family members and me, it can consider as an unforgettable story for my 27th year old birthday in my life.

新年短訊 / CNY's SMS

農歷新年的到來，賀年語一定免不了，手機短訊更不用說。新年手機賀歲短訊一大堆，從農歷新年除夕的前幾天手機開始收短訊收到快要爆滿，沒辦法之下唯有刪除。收到的短訊我都沒傳給其他人，反而自己用了一點時間來自制了一則新年短訊。快來讀讀以下的手機短訊吧，是我想出來的。

趕走豬小弟，迎來鼠大哥；阿七下臺，阿八上任。祝你有個“鼠”不盡的金鼠年，“鼠”氣洋洋，“鼠”開得勝，最重要的就是別膽小如鼠哦。新年快樂，恭喜恭喜！

我把這則短訊傳給手機名單中的朋友，不管看得懂華文或看不懂的都傳（我猜想那些看不懂華文的都是聰明的，因為看不懂自然會問人家），不知他們是否有傳給其他朋友嗎。那正在這篇文章的你是否有收到這則手機短訊嗎？

Chinese New Year has come, I believe for some of you the CNY’s sms is a must for every year. This year I received a lot of CNY’s sms started from few days before CNY eve, unfortunately I can’t keep all the sms due to limited phone space so have to delete it. I did not forward sms that I received instead I took a little time to created my own CNY’s sms. Faster come and read the sms at below, it’s created by me but it’s in Chinese version.

趕走豬小弟，迎來鼠大哥；阿七下臺，阿八上任。祝你有個“鼠”不盡的金鼠年，“鼠”氣洋洋，“鼠”開得勝，最重要的就是別膽小如鼠哦。新年快樂，恭喜恭喜！

I did sent the sms to my phone list friends, even to those who do not understand Mandarin Language (I believe they are smart, because if they do not understand sure will ask those who understand Mandarin. Right? HeHe), but not sure whether they got forward to their friends or not. For those of you who reading right now, does you received this sms?

步伐在轉著【二】 / The Pace Is Changing [2]

地球每天都在旋轉著，旋轉的速度和以前一樣沒變，但不知讀者有否感覺到我們地球人的步伐與節奏實在轉得太快了。呃。。。我往往會覺得我的步伐與節奏會比其他人慢半拍甚至一拍，可能遲鈍吧，哈哈。科技資訊，工商大樓，樣樣都在轉變著，轉變的速度更不用說，快得令人咋舌。我往往會在想，我的步伐那麼的慢，是否停留在小時候呢？可能只因過往日子的步伐比較慢，欣賞那節奏慢的日子，也可能我是個喜歡節奏慢點的人吧。我回望過去，某些日子我眞的過得很開心，只因那些日子、那個步伐、那個節奏是多麼的慢，多麼值得讓我欣賞讓我回味。呵 。。。

The earth is spinning every day; the spinning speed is remaining the same as previous. But do you realize the human pace is changing? The change has move on too fast. I feel my life’s style or my pace is slower than others; the technologies and the buildings is changing, seem like everything is changing. I’m thinking why my life’s style is slower than others, is it because I still stop at childhood? Maybe caused by my previous life’s style is slower, but I appreciated the slower life’s style. I like slower life’s style. I recalled my previous life’s style; some of it really can make me happier. I appreciate the happy moment, and the slower pace or life style. Ha…

雨的味道 / Rain's Smell

呼。。。那個氣候眞的在變化著，一個晴天霹靂，烏云滿天，刮起風，數分鐘後一場滂沱大雨。我珍惜雨天，也喜歡雨天，更愛上雨天的那種味道，尤其是雨後的那個味道。如果您問我到底是甚麼或怎樣的味道，我眞的很難形容出來，只有那些和我一樣喜歡雨天味道的人才會明白那個味道是怎樣的。也許我可以以最淺白的方式來形容雨的味道，那種味道可以說是帶點新鮮的空氣，冷冷的空氣，涼涼的。。。呃。。。還是無法形容那個味道。

我最喜歡嗅到這種味道是當我騎著摩哆機車和睡覺的時候，那個濃濃的味道深入鼻孔，再延伸至腦漿，再進入我的肺，我的丹田，再從鼻孔呼出（去想像吧，哈哈）。。。整個過程好像幫我清洗五臟六腑，好舒服噢。如果您不知道這種味道是怎樣的，不如等雨天來到時，開開窗戶嗅一嗅那個味道，搞不好您可能會好像我一樣愛上雨的味道。哈哈。你覺得我這個人是不是怪怪的？怪也好，不怪也好，總之您去試試嗅一嗅吧，嗅了後回來告訴我喜不喜歡那味道。

HUUU… the weather is changing, from sunny to cloudy, then to thunder follow by wind blow. Few second later rain start. I treasure raining day, I love raining day and I even like the smell of rain especially the smell after rain. If you ask me what the rain’s smell likes, I can’t really describe it. Only those people like me who like the rain’s smell will know my feeling. Maybe I use the most basic way to describe the rain’s smell; it feels like a little bit of fresh air, cold air, a little bit of cool… Errrr… still can’t describe the smell.

I like the raining smell especially when riding motorbike and sleeping hours, the smell blow in to my nostril, then in to my brain, and flow in to my lungs follow by my abdominal, and then flow out from my nose(try to imagine, haha)… The whole process is similar like cleaning my organs, feel so good. If you don’t know what the smell like, you can wait for raining day and have a try to smell with the rain’s smell; maybe you will like me love the rain’s smell later on. Haha. Am I weird? Weird or not is not important, the important thing is please try to smell the rain’s smell, remember tell me whether you like the smell or not.

病魔 / Sickness

一月的到來可說是有點怕，病魔繞身。家人已病好，現在輪到我。每天睡醒喉嚨好像吞了顆火球一樣，多喝兩口水感覺好多。每年的年頭都是這樣，我也沒有甚麼好埋怨了，感覺上這些病都是要來成就我的，它們都是要我活在當下！

January can consider a month that bring little scary for me, sick has began. Family sick has over, it’s my turn now. Every morning when woke up from my dreamland, I felt my throat like swallowed fire ball, I can only feel better after drink water. It does seem like every beginning of the year I will face the same problem, but I did not blame for anything. I understand why sickness happened to me because they want me realize the meaning of life; they want me living in “Real Moment” (Present or Now)!

經典歌曲 / Classical Song

我是八字輩出生的，照理來說應該喜歡聽現代歌曲的人，但我偏偏喜歡上老歌，越經典的就越好聽。但我也不會完全不聽現代歌曲，只是覺得老歌聽起來有一般濃濃的快感，那種快感難以形容，如果你問老一輩的爸爸和媽媽們，他們可能知道我所講的快感是甚麼。我有想過為何我愛上經典歌曲，我想最大的可能性歸功於父母親。從小到大都與父母一起住，唱機裡頭常播出他們喜愛的經典歌曲，日復日就這樣的愛上了老歌，歌手們的歌聲讓我陶醉。人家問我甚麼年代出世的，這樣年輕的小伙子竟然愛上經典歌曲。哈哈，但我跟自己說年輕人愛上經典歌曲無罪呀！

當我回想以前所聽過的歌曲時，印像中好像沒聽過費玉清所唱的，但近年來都有聽到他的歌聲，還慢慢地喜歡上他那把聲音。其實還有很多好聽的歌手我沒列出來，他們的歌一樣好聽。我都希望這些經典歌曲能流傳到我們的下一代，好讓他們回味一翻。

I was born in 80-an, and supposed like to listen to the modern songs that hits in the town. Unfortunately I like to listen to classic songs, the more classic the more I like. But I will listen to the modern songs too, just feel that the classic songs are nicer, I can’t really describe the feeling. If you ask the eldest, they might know what my feeling is. I did find out why I like classic songs so much, I think most probably caused by my parents. Since born till now me living together with my parents, most of the time the songs that played by them from the radio cassette are classic songs. Day-by-day and end up I like the classic songs, the classic songs & the singers sound are so nice. Some people asked me which year I born at, such a young man fallen in love with the classic song. Haha, but I told myself nothing wrong if a young man fallen in love with the classical songs!

When I recall the classic songs that I listened previously, as what I remember I never listened the songs that sang by Fei Yu Qing. But I did listen to his songs recently; I like his songs so much. Actually there are few more singers with the great sound which I did not mention here, their songs are great too. Finally I hope next generation people are able to listen to the classical songs that currently listening by us, hope they can enjoy as well in the future.

那個預言。。。/ The Prediction...

雨天過後是多麼的舒服，房內的空氣有如開了空調般冰冷，晚間的這種感覺我最喜歡。蓋上被，我回蕩過往的農歷新年，有喜有樂的。但在過往的農歷新年裡，我可記得那是無雨的季節。現在離農歷新年不到一個月，感覺上時常天暗暗都會下雨（我沒埋怨），這現象其實是從兩三年前已開始，這真的證明了氣候在改變著。

其實早在幾年前有聽聞預言家說過關於氣候的變化，預言家說那些沒有下雪的國家有可能會下雪，有下雪的國家會變熱，南北極的雪慢慢溶化造成海水高漲，會造成低洼國家被淹。除了氣候，地震也被預言家猜測過，那些國家沒有地震的都會發生地震。這些都是預言家的猜測，但近年來都顛顛發生災禍以級氣候的轉變，您覺得預言家的猜測準不準？（我不知道。。。）

I feel comfortable after rain, the fresh air in my room as cold as the air blow from the air-conditioner; I like this feeling especially at night. Lying down on my bed, I recalled the Chinese New Year few years ago, it’s fun and enjoyable. For the past Chinese New Year (years and years ago), I can clearly remember that the weather is hot; it’s not a rainy season. But from now till the coming Chinese New Year is less than a month, the weather for these few days is cloudy and rainy (I’m not blaming the weather). This phenomenon is actually happened 2 to 3 years ago, I did notice it. This proven that the weather is changing.

In fact, several years ago I did hear predictor mentioned about the phenomenon. The predictor said those countries which is not snowing will snow in the future; those countries which is snowing will get hotter. The snow on top of the mountains of the North South Polar will dissolves causing the sea level getting higher, it will flooding up low-land countries. Besides weather, earthquake was predicted by predictor too; those countries without earthquake will have earthquake in the future. All these is just the prediction from the predictor, but recently the weather has change a lot & the natural disasters happened as well, so do you agree what the predictor predicted? (I got no idea…)

一一零八 / 1108

二零零八年的第一天，凌晨時分在家窗前向吉隆坡方向望去。燦爛的煙火送走了阿七，迎來了阿八。拿起相機，拍了幾張照片就草草了事，下個任務就是找周公。躺在床上舒服多了，外頭下著細雨，我知道上天的用意在哪，祂要為我們這片土地好好的洗禮一翻，洗去二零零七年不好的，讓二零零八年有個好的開始。我聽著涼棚上滴滴答答的雨聲，不知不覺睡著了。

耳旁的鬧鐘聲驚醒夢中人（當時我眞的在做夢），鬧鐘顯示早晨五點多，這是二零零八年的第一個早晨咧。刷牙、洗臉、沖涼，下個地點就是去公司，我要上班囖！一路上的空氣清爽，這種早晨的冷空氣我最喜歡。到了公司後出去打包食物時，太陽慢慢地從東邊升起，這時看見了二零零八年的第一道曙光。哈，日出代表新的一天開始著。這時，要大大聲的對著馬來西亞說聲：“馬來西亞，二零零八年新年快樂！”

Today 1st of January, the first day of Year 2008. It is 12am, I standing in front of the windows look at the direction of Kuala Lumpur. Thousand of fireworks shoot up to the sky with the wonderful view, 2007 has resigned and welcome to 2008. Snapped few photos with my camera, the next thing was my bed time. Felt comfortable when lying on my bed. Outside was rain, I understand why. The God want to “clean up” the bad lucks for the Year 2007, and wishes have a wonderful beginning of Year 2008. Slowly I closed up my eyes, and entered to my dreamland.

The alarm sound wakened me from my dreamland, look at the clock was 5am something, and it was the first morning in Year 2008. After brushed my teeth and bath, the next place head toward was my office. Huuu… the fresh cold air was along the way, I like it most for such a fresh air. After reach at office went out to order my foods, the sun was rise from the east and I saw the first light of the dawn for the Year 2008. Ha…. Sunrise brings the meaning of a new beginning for a new day, for the moment I want to wish Malaysia: “Happy New Year 2008, Malaysia!”

*照片來自 / *Picture from http://www.google.com/